Where you don’t wanna wake up…
Oh, wait…sorry…blogging, not singing. I do have that song as
my ear worm for today though and in a bit, I shall share it. So, here I sit at
the table writing this, hearing the dog poop clean up guy doing this thing in
the back yard, I can see at least two puppies sound asleep, a TV is on in the
living room and a bazillion random thoughts are running through my mind at warp
speed. Things like I should really get all the paper shredded that I have
sitting in a reusable shopping bag before it stages a revolt and begins
depositing itself back in the mail box for me to put back in the bag o’stuff to
shred, the table needs cleaned off (again) I should really do that, the
furniture needs dusting (again) I should REALLY get that done, the carpets need
cleaned but the landlord said she was replacing the carpets when we move out
because it’s the same carpet the builder installed in 1996, gross…now I’m
thinking about all the crap in the carpets that have been in this house for 18
years!, oh hey I did get the floors wiped with one of those big floor duster
things for wood floors so yay me, I am so glad that I had kiddo clean out the
drawer in my bathroom because it was just gross and I didn’t want to do it and
while she was at it I had her organize under the sinks as well, most of the
carpets were vacuumed today so that’s improvement, I really need to clean out
the closet in our bedroom but it scares me when I walk in so I just keep the
door closed so I don’t have to see it, if Pat was home right now and he saw the
state of ill repair I have allowed things to get to because I’ve been battling
depression for so long I can’t even keep track anymore he would be mortified
and holy shit…I really want to just have a beer with some friends but I have no
friends here and the only place I know to go to be around people is in an AA
room and they HIGHLY frown upon drinking during a meeting so that idea’s out,
did I mention that the dogs are sleeping…oh and I got my protein powder today!
I really need to order more vitamins but that’s going to have to wait….
Yes…that is just a small portion of my life. Every day.
Every moment of every day to be exact. I can’t get anything done because while
I’m doing one thing I see something else that needs to be done, so I start on
that, then I see something else and go do that…you see where this is going. Then
there are the finances and I just can’t even start on that today because my
mind will explode. But I just put that thought in my head and now it’s running
with that. Oh my dear lord…my brain just needs to STOP. And I need to potty.
And now I know that it’s slightly chilly outside. The dogs needed to potty too…because
just like kids…if mom has to go then all of a sudden everyone else must go too…right
then.
My life is so boring. I mean, really. I have the dogs to
talk about when they do stupid stuff, which is daily, but who wants to read
that? I’m really trying to retract my political statements from the interwebs,
but that’s not possible, so instead I’m just shutting my mouth again…or in this
case…I’m not putting it into printed words for others to read.
Holy cow…WHAT is it about a bucket in the backyard that the
dogs love so much?! I can hear them kicking this thing around like it’s a
soccer ball, but if I put a ball out there then they just stare at it like they
don’t understand. Make it something I need to use on a regular basis and they
are all over that like white on rice. I think I just lost another bucket. I’m
glad they’re only a couple bucks at the Dollar General! I should buy stock. No,
really…maybe I should look into stock purchasing…wait, no…I said I wasn’t going
into finances today.
I quit.
I need a drink. Oh, hey…water!
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