We all sit back and for the most part we move forward with our daily lives and give no second thought to anything that happens, unless it is something that really causes pause. We see an accident and we think "I'm glad that wasn't me." or "I hope no one was hurt" but within 5 minutes, we are back to obsessing over our own lives. Not that this is inherently a bad thing, but it makes me wonder about society as a whole these days. No longer do we introduce ourselves to our neighbors and attempt to make friends, nor do we volunteer our time helping others in some fashion. I'm just as guilty of these things as the next person and probably more so. I am that true loner type with only a very close knit circle of friends, which isn't a bad thing, but it isn't a good thing either. I enjoy socializing with others, but I don't actually want to get to know you or hang out on a regular basis. I'm perfectly acceptable with catching up with some just a couple times a year and some people, even less than that.
However; I need to make the attempt to put myself out there more. Break free of my social barriers or trappings, however you want to word it. Am I comfortable doing this? Absolutely not. This is something that I must do though. A fear that I must face and overcome if I am to be the wife to my husband for his career. Although he has said that he prefers me to just be me, and I full intend on being who I am, but I also have to realize that I need to be more socially outgoing than I am now. So, not only will I be the wife to an FAO and a mother/step-mother to 4 daughters, but I get to be the arm candy to my husband at any and all social functions that require our presence. Hmph.
Currently, my husband is overseas attending a Staff College. He works out of one of the U.S. Embassies and he is playing the good officer and making the right political connections to forward his career. I am still in the good ole U.S. of A, in my home state with my daughters and am about to file for custody of one of my step-daughters. Nice huh? Oh to have the opportunity to live this type of life! LOL. Seriously though, this isn't a bad life...it just takes some getting used to. I miss my husband terribly and I love my family fiercely. So as I go on this little adventure for the next year, I'll try to post something every day, so that I can look back on my life and see both the good and the bad and try to make my life, truly one worth living.
Until next time!
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