Yes, I said it. I said, "Let go." Now, allow me to finish that saying..."Let God."
I may be pushing that cusp of the envelope with some people lately in reference to my daily postings about just how good God is and how well He is working things in my life. To those people, I pray for you, for it is you that needs God most of all. Yes, I was right there where you are right now. Hemming and hawing, p-shawing my way through, saying all the same things that you are thinking and you know what you are thinking. As someone said last week to me, "I see you've gotten into 'all that stuff' and you're posting about it." All that stuff? Okay, I'll give that one. However; "all that stuff" isn't just something that I've gotten in to, it is something that has gotten INTO me, in my soul, in my heart, in my mind and it has taken control of my life. And you know something? It feels SO good.
We have hit some hard financial times the last few months. However; we are climbing out of that now that we have some bills paid off and all child arrears are caught up. This month was one of the hardest though because we were almost completely out of food. I cannot tell you the number of prayers I prayed. I even requested prayer regarding our situation at my church because I was so concerned. Let me tell you, prayers work! I was just praying that our need be met, believing that God would make it so. Without any prior knowledge, we received a partial child support payment from my daughter's biological father, when God knew we needed it most. It met our needs!
I am praying so hard right now for my husband and a situation involving him. Pat doesn't believe and it hurts me so very much. He truly has no idea just how badly I pray for him. He also had no clue that I had been praying about the situation until this morning. I find it amazing that I can open up to almost random strangers about how good God is in my life and I have the hardest time talking to my husband about all the good workings and blessings I see working. I prayed and I still pray, but this morning as we were lying in bed and unable to sleep, he talked about how stressed he is over what is going on. The next thing I knew, I was cuddling next to him and hugging him saying that things were going to be just fine, that it would work itself out because God would make it so, that I was praying for it all and that I believe that God WILL work it out. All my husband did was just hug me and say that he was glad I felt that way. While my heart breaks, my prayers increase and my faith strengthens. I know my husband does not see the things being blessed as I see them, he says it is all logical...I simply say, "Thank you God!" The phone call today? It was my husband, with a smile in his voice saying that it is going to work out and it is doable, but it is going to take a little more work. After I got off the phone, I dropped my head and praised God for it!
I don't know where we will be a month from now, but I firmly believe that with each passing day, my faith will grow stronger. I pray for each and every one of you. Especially you. Yes, you. You know who you are. I'm talking to YOU.
Now, I believe I am going to go take a nap. I've been up almost 12 hours already. I am tired!
See you all on the other side!
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